Happy New Year Love :)

New Year is the perfect time to tell you
how much you mean to me and what a joy it is
to have you in my life,

Sometimes words are not enough
to express how much I love you...

This New Year, though we are not together
I just wish to tell you
My love, you mean the world to me!

Wishing you a New Year filled with days
as special as you make each of mine!

Trust and Finding Love

I have been very honest. I try to make my partner get to know who I really am. I apologize when I make mistakes, I am willing to learn and grow with him. But why is it so hard for the other person to tell the truth? Why is it so hard to understand my reasons? My situation is a little bit difficult compared to the others. Im a single parent and I struggle everyday. I knew my situation can be a challenge for someone who wants to be part of my life. I used to waste my money buying things I want for myself and spend my money for luxury, parties and nightouts. Now, I think of my son's needs first before mine. Life is a constant journey and I'm learning from it.

I know we all tend to be possessive and suspicious of others. That's when honesty and trust play their part. Communication is very important especially for a long distance relationship. I was against it but i gave it a chance. But I'm just not getting the honesty and trust I deserve. I have learned to accept there's no such thing as true love aside from the love of a mother to her child. I build up my defenses to protect me from the pain of failed relationships and brokenheart. I have given up on love untill someone came along and stole my fragile heart. My heart started beating for love again. I gave my heart another chance. But now, Im starting to wonder if I made the right choice. I feel the pain again. But im not going to just give up altogether when i want to be able to live life to the fullest, and part of living life to the fullest involves possibilities, which include being in love. I wanna know what love truly is and I dont want to be alone and feeling lonely in my life like i have been. Since my mom died, everything has changed. I grew cold but strong. I've been like that all my life, and im tired of that. I know finding love is all about taking chances, and not being the one to wait for love to come to you as it lessens your likelihood of finding love. Love is really such a mystery to me...

If you're not the one by Daniel Bedingfield

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

You Saved my Heart

You saved my heart... you don't even know me
You saved my dream... you heard me scream
Oh my lost soul... was saved by a stranger
Who saved my life... you saved my life

Why did you do it?
What made you stop and turn around?
Do you even know the reason
Why you had to help me out?

Just when I knew it
It was my time to sink or swim
You came along and pulled me out
Of all the trouble I was in

Why did you do it?
Why did you risk your life for mine?
Would I have the same done for you?
Would I have saved you just in time?

You saved my heart... you don't even know me
You saved my dream... you heard me scream
Oh you saved my soul... love that you have shown me
You saved my life... you saved my life

Where did you come from?
How did you know I was alone?
That I never stood a chance
To find the way out on my own?

Who sent the message?
That I was hanging by a thread
By this very time tomorrow
They will leave me here for dead

Why did you do it?
Why did you risk your life for mine?
Would I have the same done for you?
Would I have saved you just in time?

So this is love...

What is this I'm feelin'
I just can't explain
When you're near
I'm not quite the same
I try to hide it
Try not to show it
It's crazy, how could this be

I'm fallin' for you
Finally my heart gave in
And I'm fallin' in love
I've finally known
How it feels

When you said "hello"
I looked in your eyes
Suddenly I felt good inside
Is this really happening
Or am I just dreaming
I guess it's true
I can't believe

It doesn't matter where I am
Thoughts of you still linger
In my mind
No matter what time of day
I'm really, really
Fallin' for you

I'm fallin' for you
Finally my heart gave in
And I'm fallin' in love
I've finally known
How it feels
So this is love

No Place that far

To B.F

I can't imagine any greater fear
Than waking up without you here
And though the sun would still shine on
My whole world would all be gone
But not for long

If I had to run
If I had to crawl
If I had to swim a hundred rivers
Just to climb a thousand walls
Always know that I would find a way
To get to where you are
There's no place that far
It wouldn't matter why we're apart
Lonely months, two stubborn hearts
Nothing short, nothing impossible
Could turn me away from your love
I need you that much



Your Shey...